Going Without
Three more days until my birthday. People have been asking me what I would like, and I haven't been able to give them a straight answer. I don't really know what I want. I don't have any games in mind. All music can be downloaded or streamed for free. I can go without watching movies or television episodes. I have no desire for any new technology other than a better computer, and that would be just to prove once and for all that our internet is slow and not the computer. This little laptop Wesley is letting me use is probably fine. I don't even care if I get magic cards. It would be nice, but I've got no one to play with up here in Alaska. And there will always be better cards to come in the future.
The things I want for sure are things that people can't really help me get; a better job, a girlfriend, or just more friends. Its been hard for me to connect with anyone here. As far as I can tell, I just haven't met the right kind of people. Everyone here is caught up in their own lives and doesn't give me a chance. My pessimistic side tells me we wouldn't get along anyway. A lot of the people I've met like to go party and get drunk or do drugs. I'm not desperate enough to change myself for them. I like who I am, and I want to find people who feel the same way about themselves and about me.
In three days I'll be old enough to legally drink alcohol, but I don't have any real desire to do that either. I don't see the point. I have no desire for a nasty after-taste in my mouth or a warm feeling in my stomach. I have no desire for slurred speech, or saying things in my head without meaning to. I like to keep my wits about me, and I have other ways to deal with stress.
All I have to look forward to is a good time with the family I have here. It will be my first birthday without my mom and most of my sisters, but I'm sure we'll still have a good time. As always, I miss my family. We've all been each other's best friends. But I understand that having the whole family together is just another thing I can go without. As long as we still get to see each other every now and then, that's fine with me.
posted by gamefreak @ 3:40 PM
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4 Comments:
Hey Bud,
Just typed a comment and when I pressed to Publish it came back with an error. Lame. So if you get this twice, that's why.
Happy birthday on Saturday! I'm a little jealous of the party you guys will be having without me, because I'd love to be there to celebrate and drink Root Beer with you! Just know that I love you! I'm sorry things have been a little rough with your friends, but I think it's good that you're staying true to yourself. Dad came home from Alaska and told me you're doing really well and you've gotten really mature. He said you ate sushi....on PURPOSE. Which is either maturity, or it just proves that there's nothing worth eating in Alaska. But since it's almost your birthday, we'll go with "mature." :)
I can't wait to see you again, and I hope to talk to you soon!
-Kjersti
It was so good to spend time with you while I was in Alaska!! I really miss you!! I hope you have an excellent birthday and I hope you have a great time with the family! I'll try to call you and talk to you on your birthday and if you think of something you would like for your birthday, let me know and I;ll send you a present too! :) Love you!!
I enjoyed talking with you yesterday when you called, but I just wanted to write anyway and wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope the meal that you planned was as good as it sounded. I wish I could have been there to share the good times with you. I miss you and love you and I am so proud of all that you have accomplished there. It is so hard to believe that you are 21 now! I am glad that you are working hard and that your wants are few. It is always easier to get what you want, if you don't want anything! :) I know you will eventually meet some people with your same values who you will like and who will like you. Just as Kjersti said, I am glad that you can be yourself and can stay true to who you are. I am so very, very proud of you and hope to see you again before too long. Love you, Mom
I'm beind on seeing this blog, Geoff, but HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! I didn't know you want presents, dang it! I should have saved my money! Hahaha! I hope the gift we sent you were ok. :)
I miss seeing you. I've enjoyed staying in touch over FB, texts or just talking on the phone, though. I hope that things get better for you and you make some great friends. Things like that can take their sweet time, but I'm proud of you for not lowering your standards just to have someone to hang out with. Like you said, your family are your best friends and we'll always be there for you! I'm also happy that you get to be with the Little Momma again!
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