A Blogger Once More Part 2

I've just blogged twice in a row, so if you haven't already, you should read the blog that comes before this one first.

So here's what's happened: Before I left I was doing all that I could to clean up my life: getting rid of crappy friends, quitting my online game and spending less time online overall, and spending time with my AWESOME family. A couple days before my flight, a girl you should all know from a previous blog a long time ago named Kristy told me that she loved me. She said she's loved me since high school, but she just never got the guts to tell me. This was kind of cruel, because I've always wanted to be with her, and she had to tell me AFTER she got engaged to her stalker, and AFTER I received a ticket to Kodiak. She and I kissed the night before I had to leave, and she said that she was pretty much fucked, because she'll have to tell her fiancée Caleb that she loves me eventually. She lives with him in an apartment because she was kicked out from her dad's and her grandma's house. She didn't see any other choice but to keep living with him, and she was sure he'd leave her to live there by herself if she told him, so she kept her feelings for me secret. Anyway, she was depressed and beating herself up for letting me go to Kodiak, but we kept contacting each other for about a week. She was even more upset when she heard I got a job, because that just made my stay here more permanent to her. She said she couldn't come up to live in Kodiak because her friends and her family, though shitty, were all she had, and she couldn't leave them, so she figured the only way we could be together is if I came back to Utah.

So after a week of talking to each other, she and I start fighting.

I finally texted her saying I didn't want to come back to Utah, but if I was going to consider it at all, she'd have to get rid of Caleb. The text I received back from her was actually from Caleb, telling me how much they both thought I was a pathetic lowlife living in a fantasy world and I should leave them alone. This was the usual shit I heard from Caleb whenever he would hack into her facebook or emails, so I told him to prove it by having her tell me on the phone. To my disbelief, she called and said "Geoff just go away." and hung up. So I texted back saying she and I needed to talk. Caleb said no, I had my proof. She had decided to be with a stalker that was always there rather than a lover that was always gone, so I figured "Fine....if she chooses him and treats me like shit, she'll have to deal with the consequences." and I told Caleb what Kristy had said and done with me and I said "So much for living in a fantasy world huh?" And so there was more fighting between me and Caleb and me and Kristy and that was that. We stopped talking to each other and we deleted each other from facebook. So much for love.

During the time I was having problems with Kristy, I confided in one of my co-workers named Rosie about the problem. She didn't help much because she felt it was a sticky situation and it was just up to me, but it was good for me to talk about it to someone rather than keeping it to myself. After my fight with Kristy, I finally decided that I was going to move on from her. And having little or no friends left from my "life cleaning" I decided to try and be friends with some of my co-workers. Most of the girls I work with are really cute, so I'd smile when we'd see each other and do my best to learn from them and do my job better. Cutting up vegetables and meat for pizza and washing the huge dishes they were cooked on has been difficult for me to become faster at. I really wanted to keep my fingers intact and unscathed. :)

One night I was closing the pizzeria with Rosie's friend Carla all alone, and she asked me if I liked Rosie. It caught me off guard, but I told her how I wouldn't mind having Rosie as a girlfriend, and how I'd like to be friends with her and hang out after work. This....was the wrong thing to do. The next day my co-worker Jesse (a guy) said "So I heard you have the hots for Rosie." My head drooped down and I said "Shit." and I laughed and shook my head and gave him a look like "Damn you." but in a good way. He laughed and said "Yeah...guess how THAT got out." I later asked Carla why she told Jesse, and she said she didn't. So it could've been 3 different things. A: She's lying to me to protect herself. B: She told someone else and it got around to Jesse. or C: Someone from the front of the store was nearby and overheard our conversation and spread the news. I'm thinking option A but it doesn't really matter. The information was out there and probably spreading through the store like a virus.

So I decided to send Rosie a text saying there was a rumor going around about me liking her, and I told her it was true, but I only wanted to be friends. Rosie is 18, has a kid already, and used to have a relationship with my supervisor Ceaser. Its not Ceaser's child and the real father is gone.(Ironic that a guy named Ceaser would be working in a pizza place other than Little Ceaser's, but Big Al's is the only pizza place on Kodiak anyway) I had told Rosie earlier that I wouldn't be ready for the responsibility of a child, so I think she should've known I only wanted to be friends. She didn't react as maturely as I hoped. She didn't want to be friends. But rather than tell me it was because she thought I was trying to be with her, she kept naming off other reasons why we couldn't hang out after work. "I don't have time to hang out with friends." "But you said you hang out with Carla and other people at work." "Well they come over to my house." "I can come over to your house too." "Why do you want to be friends so bad?" "Because I think you're cool and I don't have any friends here yet." "Well I just don't think it would be a good idea." "Why not?" And she finally told me it was because of the feelings I had for her and she made it very clear she wanted to be co-workers only. So I told her fine I wouldn't bother her anymore, but she had already complained to Ceaser saying she didn't want to work with me. I felt it was completely unnecessary and was angry about it when Ceaser told me about the complaint. It was basically a slap on the wrist and everything was ok after that.

I later tried to be friends with someone who works in the store rather than in the pizzeria with me. Her name is Vicki. She's 17, turning 18 in two or three months. I gave her my number and became friends with her on facebook. Four days later I ask why she hadn't texted me yet and she said "I don't know, I've been busy." So I took her for her word and expected her to text me soon because of my reminder. Another 3 days went by with no word from her so I decided I would send her a message on facebook on my day off. I saw that she had just posted a picture of her and Rosie hanging out and having fun, so I was suspicious that she wasn't talking to me because she had heard bad things about me from Rosie. I sent her a message saying I haven't heard from her since I gave her my number and I asked if it was safe to assume she didn't want to be friends. I said if that were the case I'd understand and leave her alone. Her response confirmed my suspicions. "Don't text me again. And I have my reasons." She had facebook mobile, so she got a text from me not realizing it was from facebook. So I sent her another message saying that it was actually a message from facebook, but I got the point. I said it was a shame I was losing two cool friends because of one stupid mistake, but I'd leave her alone and find someone else who would take a chance on me. Later I started getting texts from people at work. Esther: "Where did you get Vicki's number?" Ceaser: "What have I told you about texting girls at work? We're gonna have to have another talk about this tomorrow."

So basically I almost got fired because of two stupid girls, but after talking to Esther, she stood up for me and there wasn't any problem when I came back to work. Both Rosie and Vicki talked to me like nothing had happened. Plus there was some other drama that happened when I wasn't there that day. Jesse and Ceaser got into a fight about Jesse stealing from the tip jar. When I got back to work, Ceaser wasn't working and Jesse was. He told me what happened and said that Ceaser said I'm the one that said Jesse was stealing. I've never even divided tips for everyone before, so I wouldn't know if Jesse was stealing or not, and I told Jesse so. He said he believed me and thinks Ceaser was just trying to get me fired. Jesse is still thinking about putting in his two weeks notice. He says Ceaser has given him a lot of other crap before and what happened that day was the last straw.

So now, everything seems back to normal and my co-workers are noticing my improvement at work. I'm still learning something new almost everyday, but it seems I'm starting to fit in at work now. A girl named Cassie has become friends with me ,and Esther and I text each other every now and then. So for now, all the drama is gone, and I'm laying low. Talk about stress though right?! Geez!