Brainstorm

Lately, I've been having lots of thoughts in my mind. I've been thinking about past, present, and future. Once again, games start to look more appealing, because those are what keep my thoughts at bay. My days are becoming a bit more blurred, because they all seem about the same as the other. I keep saying "I'm thinking about writing a book", but that's all I ever do: just think about it. I could write things down so I don't forget them, but I seem to be too lazy to even do that. I think about school and how either their system of teaching should change or how I should change to keep up with everyone else. Maybe I need both. I think about moving away from my home. I think about how many years of school I have left. I think about getting a job. I think about what it would be like to handle all of my finances. My questions of "Why?" and "Why not?" have been confirmed as good questions, but most of them don't get answered. Ignorance is NOT bliss. I want so many things to stay the same, but at the same time, I want so many things to change. I know I'm not the only one who thinks this way, but it sure seems like it. Most of these thoughts are all part of growing up, but I'm not exactly looking forward to growing up either. Sure, some of the things I do seem to be more mature than what other people do, but I don't see why I have to be even more mature than I am now. Now that I've laid my thoughts down on the table, maybe you can brainstorm about it too.