Give me a break

*gasp* Look! A blog from Geoffrey! Yeah....I figured I'd write about me again. I'm gonna write about some of the problems I'm having. First off, I'd say that I've hit the wall again in my education. I just can't be forced to learn stuff I don't care about. I thought maybe since these subjects were in the field of psychology that I'd actually be willing to learn it, but I was wrong. I'm probably going to pass 2 of the 4 classes I'm taking, and I think it's because the instructor actually makes that class fun. Surprisingly, it's the same instructor for both classes. Mrs. Theresa Kay has a very unique teaching style that I find to be energetic, fun, and contemporary. She knows how the kids of today think. I've checked, and she only teaches 3 classes. The classes I'm taking from her are Introduction to Psychology and Interpersonal Relationships. She also teaches an Abnormal Psychology class. My Philosophy class is fun every now and then, but the work load is enormous. He would have us read about 10-25 pages before the lecture, and I have him M-W-F, which means I have to read 30-75 pages a week on a subject that isn't always interesting to me. I've also noticed that his tests are mostly on the reading that he has assigned to us. Meaning if I attended all of his classes but never read a page in the book, I'd get less than 50% on his tests. As for my Sociology class, it's not fun at all. I don't care about the major social problems in the world. Sure, a couple of these problems are affecting my life even now, but I still don't care. It's not something that peaks my interest. It's not something I'm willing to learn. The work load is considerable in this class as well. The instructor is forcing us to do some volunteer work that relates with one of the subjects she's going to teach us about this year. Yes, it's only 5 hours of volunteer work, but I also have to spend 3 hours writing a paper about my experience and how it ties in with the subject. It's like seeing 4 bad movies in a row. I don't want to waste 8 hours of my life.

As for my girlfriend situation, it's still as dramatic as ever. Grace and I broke up about a month ago, but she's expressed how she still needs me in her life, still needs my support. Her roommate is still hurting her every now and then. Her hours at her job are being cut because they aren't getting enough customers. Some of her ex-boyfriends online are causing her some grief. She finds great value in my friendship. She says I'm one of the things that's keeping her sane, but I say she's already crazy. She'll just get even more crazy if I stop supporting her. She's in love with a 15 year old now. She's willing to wait until he's old enough, but I still think she's absolutely crazy. She has no idea what love is. I think she attaches herself to anyone that's nice to her.

I'm currently going after my ex-girlfriend Kristy again. If you don't remember her, I blogged about her before. I posted pictures of her on that blog too. She's been jealous of all the other relationships I've talked to her about. She told me that she's always liked me and that she never stopped. She's told me what she wished would've happened when we were dating. And the way that we've been talking, she gives me the impression that there's no doubt that we'll be together again. But now, here comes her ex-boyfriend to ruin things. She's had a boy in her life for almost 4 years named Caleb. They've had good times and bad times and he's proposed to her before. Yesterday he went to her house and found her looking through some old pictures. They reminisced about old times, and after that, he proposed to her again. She pushed him away, and didn't say anything, but he left the ring on her finger and told her to think about it. Then she writes an email to me about it and says that she doesn't know what to do. I wrote an email back with my opinion and told her that it was her choice to make. She didn't like that very much. Many emails have been exchanged between us since then, and now she's testing to see how much I really care about her. Wants to see how I'll fight to talk to her. No one likes to be tested like that. I said to myself that I'll jump through some hoops for her, but I'm not going to beg. I called her over and over again for a little while, but I gave up after about 10 minutes.

Obviously I'm being pretty vague on the good stuff and pretty clear on the bad stuff, so I'm sure you're opinions of what I should do will probably be unsatisfactory in my eyes, but I'd like to hear them nonetheless. I know how much all of you care about me, and the help that you've offered me in the past was much appreciated. I've never viewed education in the same way everyone else in the family does, and I've had quite a different experience all together in my relationships. I think it's going to be hard to help me unless you've experienced something similar. I can't force myself to learn, and I can't shake this feeling that I need someone other than a family member to love me for who I am. What should I do?